hi guys, im back.

attended wai gong's funeral this early morning.

had breakfast with both sis and gugus at the nearby coffeeshop.

feeling alittle heartache upon reaching the wake.

don't know why.

prayer started.

while holding onto the joss stick, i feel like weeping silently.

it's like once a healthy person, how can he passed on so suddenly?

no one was beside him before his last breath.

but, he passed away peacefully.

a relieve from all pain.

last prayer conducted before the body was cremented.

went to viewing room to see him off the last time.

it was then tears started to form.

and i weeped silently.

thinking about how he used to dote on all of us when we're young.

and celebrated my 1st birthday with him.

i will always remember his smile, although there wasn't many teeth left.

and his skinny built.

he used to live at lim chu kang area.

where we used to play with rhino beetles.

both my cousins, siblings, and i used to hang out at the nearby playground.

he even took us to the durian plantation, to collect durians that has drop down from the trees.

those were the days.

as we grew up, the only time we manage to visit him is during chinese new yr.

however, my parents will pay him a visit sometimes without the kids.

feeling regret.

if we could just spend more time with him.

my mum and aunts will be going down tmr, to collect his ashes.

went back to the apartment to get changed.

lunch at boon lay raja restaurant with aunts, uncles, and cousins.

adults at one table, and the young grown-ups at the other.

kinda awkward, nothing to talk about.

after the last course, we bid each other goodbye.

it will be a different chinese new yr celebration next yr.

i wonder....

All well,

xiaowei